One question posed by my frens today while on a KOI study break: Will you give up church because of something else? (They specifically asked abt gf la...) Answer? At that moment, wat i said was that i would give up church even if it is not becos of relationship issues... Ok, that sounded bad, lets try again... Church is a seperate entity, one that will not be affected by external issues.. It has been my habit, my ritual, since the time i laid my foot on this planet.. But more importantly, it has been my home, my hiding place, my comfort, the place where i found much joy... If there ever comes a day when i want to give it up, it would be cos i need to, and not by the influence of any other factors....

Just a random thought... We are supposed to be the Salt and Light of this world.. But how is it even manageable when the world in the 21st century see Salt as unhealthy, and rather live in Darkness than in Light? Just thought of that when eating fries (U know, the REAL unhealthy salt)... Was revising for Sociology just now, and i came across the Marxist view of religion... It was a diff concept, in the fact that it was Humans who created God, instead of God that created Humans... Although it was taught to me since young that God created the Homo Sapiens out of dirt and dust of the earth, there has been an equal and opposite force teaching the exact opposite of the theory extracted from the bible.. That Humans are the one who created God out of dirt and dust seem to be the more rational answer (Seeing the fact that many gods are made of materials of this world, as are the symbols that represent them)... So who is right???

Personal Opinion (And super biased towards Christianity): I believe that I am believing in a true God. A God that lives, not one that is dead.. My God communicates, talks, listens, touches, and do many more physical things that can be considered 'real'... But all in all, i like to believe that my God is an irrational God that created rationality... Take the story of 5 loaves and 2 fish for example... I mean, 5 loaves fed 5000 people, and 7 loaves fed 4000... Ignoring how awesome the miracles are (or how humongous the bread was in the past), the numbers fail to correlate... It's either God loves being irrational, or the Creator of Math is bad at His own subject...

More important than who is right, i guess it would be who is more influential... U can be wrong, but still draw the crowds and make everyone adjust their expectations to your standards... So each to their own opinions, and their own scope of influences... I shall continue to enjoy saltiness...

Dun play with God, He doesn't joke around.... This mornings' insight is just that, and i am so baffled by how He does all these stuff... Long story short, i was deciding whether to wake up tml morning to start a jogging routine... But the lazy old me was, all in all, the lazy old me... Can't imagine dragging myself out of bed even before sunrise to sweat it out... So i did wat some of my cell members have been doing... I asked God.... So i turned off the 6:30am alarm, and told God that if it was in His favour that i wake up at that crappy hour to jog, that He will personally wake me up... By now u shld hav guessed wat time was reveille....

Think i told Pastor the wrong thing yesterday... Maslow did not hav a triangle structure in his theory of Hierarchy of needs... But i guess it just came out... And that triangle structure seems more like Weber's Bureaucracy... Although without that Greek Temple structure.... Funny how all those management theories start to become at least a little useful in life, when last year all i thought was how bullshit was the whole module...

And yes, there seems to be a structural change going on in the church right now... And change is always hard, esp for the members of the group that change will be applied to... Guess it is inevitable that ppl will be dissatisfied, against it, or even leave the organisation... But if that change is for the better, hopefully the long run positive effects will be able to outweigh the short run negative......