P.S.I

Haze has been bad, totally dun like neighbours burning forests... We are the ones getting the detrimental externality!! Hello!! But yea, PSI today meant smth else other than the pollution thingy...

Personal Spiritual Index. Thats wat i wanted to refer to.. Is there a way to calculate spiritualality (is there even such a word)?? If so, how? I hav always thought of it as a unity, either 1 or 0... Its either there, or its nt, no room for halfways, no gray areas.. But cell group today brought up an interesting point... Is it possible to 'deny yourself' a little, or to be a little holy? Guess thats wat theologians and wise men are still debating up till this day... With Mankind playing God, making their own choices, deciding their own fate, there is always that option to deny ourselves a little less, take up the cross sometimes, and follow Jesus as and when we feel like.

I love The Big Bang Theory, their jokes are simply hilarious.. But wat struck me was how ridiculous it was to try and calculate and define things that are, in a way, limitless... Science has always tried to quantify subjects, from atoms to thought patterns, but there is always that limit.. How did 5 loaves and 2 fishes feed thousands? There are some things that go beyond the logic of multiplication and division... For a God that created the World out of nothing, that is what science is missing out.. Keep counting, or stop and believe in the supernatural? Choices...

Again?

Just wanted to check, is there any point going against the doctor's orders? Definitelt right? Think abt it, i can't just waste another 5 weeks using my pathetic left hand while my right hand takes it own sweet time to recover right?

Just makes no sense as to why i hav to get a splint... That means more money, and that sucks... But now it has come to this, 5 more weeks of this... 5 more weeks of inefficiency... What a waste... Oh well, no choice.. right??

School Life

I use to hear adults grumble all the time abt work life, how it sucks and how they wish to go back to the days where studying was the hardest thing to do.. Well, that was when i was schooling of cos, and naturally i didnt understand much of their rants... I mean, they are actually wishing for the phase in life that i was actually nt enjoying...

5 years down the road, i do know now the pains of adulthood... The need to improve, the competitiveness, the lack of motivation, etc.. It was really better back when i was younger and happier, where the only hard choice i had to make was where to dine.. Nt saying this problem of looking for the perfect dinner location has been solved, rather it has just become less of an issue, with all the other nonsense in life crowding it out...

Guess the road that i hav chosen is the one less taken... Maybe i overestimated myself, dun think i can motivate myself to push thru both work and studies for 7 more months... 1 week was enough to kill... But blame it not on any other factors, but rather on the fact that i wasted my chance to study hard... Now, i just feel like going back to the good old days of school life...

Routine

Biggest take out of cell today, the word routine... The mindless ploughing through of life, just becos its expected of u... To wake up early, go to work, go to skl, even have fun... Although its gd that some things are habitual, that is done everyday, even without the mood, what matters more is the intent.. Why is the event held in that certain day and time over a constant period of time? Its like trying to explain why we celebrate National Day... To commemorate the day we became independant... Even though we criticise the performance as getting worse every year, singing stupid songs, seeing tax payers money burst into colourful flames, the list goes on.... Main point is, if its to rmb smth impt, it shld always be thought of whenever the routine starts, when the cycle repeats itself... What am i doing this for??

W.O.W

Not world of warcraft pls, i dun even play that, although many a times i wish i did... Woes of Work was wat i am referring to... Can't understand how ppl can take spending hours after hours, days after days, months, years, and even decades in an office doing the same routine tasks... Maybe momentum is a factor here, the only drive to overcome the inertia of waking up every weekday to join the crowd in the trains... Stopped work for 2 weeks due to the fracture, and i just dun feel like continuing alr... But desperate circumstances (such as an ever depleting bank account) forces one to be rational, and so here i am....

105minutes till the end, for today at least....

White Hand

2 weeks into bai chiu, the joy of being served is over, its too hard to work with one hand, and the rainy weather is causing pain, on top of the itchiness of nt bathing the hand for half a month...

One more week before the Xray, pls heal quickly....

Mobile

Now blogging can be done mobile? How convenient... But then again, every other thing has been turned into an app... From coupons to movies, games and even the bible, all in the your palm...

My life has pretty much been controlled by such technology... Although the phone and sms functions are basically ignored (nt many ppl text and call me, i'm a loner thru and thru), i still can't get by without the calendar, email, music, radio, videos, fb, twitter, and now, just maybe, the easier way to blog...

Have been expressing my thoughts and opinions more thru twitter, smth that i mv thought will even come into my life, and fb, THE social network... Dun even touch google plus even thou i hav an acc... blogging just seem to nt be as big a thing to do...

But i maintain this as a diary that i hav nv been able to keep, a spot on the world wide web to call mine.. Till nxt time...