What now?

Many have asked when I am tendering, quitting this job that has been exploiting me for months, when am I going to go out, stretch my wings and reach my maximum potential. I made it clear that I have promised to stay for at least a year in this job, and that promise expired on the first day of October. Nonetheless, I am continuing at this job because 1. there might be a year end bonus, you never know, 2. I believe job market should be better start of next year, so quit then and start looking then, and 3. I have more things to worry about (church camp), so I rather hold a job that allows me to worry about those stuff even during working hours.

I am a rational human being. This is my choice. As much as my inner self struggles to get out, to rage quit, to just let go now, I know that it is best to follow the planned route. There is so much more to life than selling time for money. 

Break

Been some time since I updated here, since no one reads it anyway. But since it is my way of keeping track of life, here goes.

I made up a perfect analogy of the current workplace situation last night. Previously, when there are two directors in the company, it was like the perfect situation. The angel and the devil, the good guy vs the bad guy, Light vs Darkness. It was a state of equilibrium where we can go to the angel after being ill treated by the devil, complaining, and at least get a listening ear to our problems, knowing that someone on the upper level knows what is going on and is willing to offer us a helping hand. 

About 2 months ago that angel left. What remains is the devil and his hellhole. And no one likes to live in hell. This is the worst possible situation to ever be in. To know that you are being paid too little, overworked, assigned tasks that are not in your scope of work and totally not related to your expertise, with only a reason saying 'I AM GIVING YOU A CHANCE TO LEARN'. Pardon my language, but fuck that shit, I am not staying for this crap.

Trying to be a rational human being, quitting after getting a bonus (which I highly doubt, given the poor performace of the company after Mr Angel left, and the devil being one that does not even pay the least attention to details such as public holidays, off in lieu, pay slips, etc.). Hopefully my already wearing thin patience can last just 7 weeks more...