Today's sermon was enlightening, to say the least... To know that i am not the only one feeling so lost as i step into this new year, to remember that even during these times, that there is a greater being watching over me... Yes, i know... I started this year with the mentality that its juz another year.. I hav nothing in store for me, nothing to look forward to, nothing to work towards, nothing to wish for, nothing. Not that it has changed now.. Nothing's changed.. I still feel that way.. But at least i know that i'm not alone....

Yes, i'm emo now... Can't even gather up my thoughts properly to type watever i wanted to... But yes, i think i am changing... Or rather, i had enough... Enough is enough... Didn't know that emptiness can take up so much space... That nothingness can be so pressurizing.. I felt so alone... Feel so alone... Even though it contradicts the fact that i know that i am not... It juz feels like i am constantly giving, going all out to satisfy others, that i forget that i am human too... But now i remember... I am human, and humans hav feelings... Keeping negative feelings was a wrong choice.. Two negatives dun make a positive, dun believe wat they teach u in math class.. But yes, i think i reached breaking point... Guess i need a friend... Someone to make me feel less lonely... But who cares? No one.