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Watched 2 movies over the weekend. One was about an alien that gains acceptance in a foreign planet because of his super human strength, speed, flight, xray vision, laser shooting out of his eyes, etc. Another was about 4 street magicians coming together to create a show that is so awesomely planned out so as to get accepted into a group of highly achieved professionals of their trade. Either way, it was both about doing something incredible to others, so as to gain acceptance.

With the shortage of alien genes and the swift fingers to create illusions, I ask, what can be done to gain acceptance? Is it the things you do, the things you say, or even simply being there to let your presence be felt, what is it? Living in the utilitarian world and economic society, we are often judged based on certain qualifications, skills that we have painstakingly nurtured and honed since young, with that one goal, that one aim to fit into society, to be accepted. But what if that was not everybody's goal? What if we strive to be different? The different ones are usually outcasted, viewed by sneering eyes, and lashed with spite. Society tends to have correcting mechanisms that tries to steer every soul to the accepted norms.

And so now when I look back, there was something that I missed out on learning. Something that is so simple yet crucial in living. I don't have courage. Yes, I might have the wisdom of the world, to know what to say, when to say it. But the heart fails. The brain works fine, but deep inside I can't draw out the courage to say things I want to say. Maybe it is due to me worrying more, about consequences, about downsides, about negativity which stops me from trying. Being risk averse has proven to be a natural survival instinct. But what if I don't want to just survive? What if I want to live? What should I say? What should I do? That is the riddle Life provides, and I am so lost right now.