Forward

Forced to look forward in life over the weekend. What do I want to do in future? Is where I am now where I am supposed to be? If not, where? How long should I stay here? Questions questions questions.

Watched Central Intelligence on Saturday, the one with the Rock (Dwayne Johnson) acting like a lunatic. Was funny, with some crude humour. No idea why there were kids sitting beside me in the cinema. Well, even if they are let into the theatre, guess they wouldn't understand the joke at all. All in all the show was mainly talking about a man who excelled at everything in high school, but got into a slump when in his thirties(?), at least I think it is thirties. I think that is what is happening to me right now. After schooling life, it is trying to settle down with a job that feeds me, not necessarily one that I enjoy, but one that meets my financial needs. Maybe now it is time to look at economical needs rather than purely financial.

With what little knowledge left from University days, what I remember is that one of the measurement is based on Utility. And based on a perfect world with only 2 variables, there is a balance required between said 2 variables to achieve maximum utility, or in simple terms, maximum happiness. So coming back to my problem, I have an income that I can use to fund things that I like, things that increase my utility. But I don't have a job, I have work. Sometimes I just loathe the fact that I need to go to work, to do things that I see no future in, and basically being less and less motivated day after day.

Hopefully my unicorn shirt wearing Bob Stone shows up and gives me some advise on life, but not in the movie kind of sense. That guy seriously has a few screws loose.