Hindsight

Spent a portion of the morning reading through posts that I wrote years back. Posts about movies, of virgin experiences, of YEP trips, of studying, of One Love, and of life experiences in general. In many ways, it seems as though I have moved on from my teenage years. I can look back at those posts and laugh at how childish I was, and how simple life was. But in some ways, life did not change, I did not change. Was complaining about having to suck things up and just do it just a few posts back, and after reading past blog posts, realised that I was typing the same thing years back. Same topic of having to just take things in stride, to suck it up, and just do it.

Goes to show how matured I was in the past, and that I made no progression from then. Am I stuck in a rut, unable to move on because this hole, although causes me to be stagnant, is also comfortable? Do I really need to move on? I have questioned myself many times on that. To take that leap of faith into the unknown. To step out of this comfort zone into the cyclone of turmoil outside. But the gap is too wide, the hurdle too high.

Going back to a post that I blogged about years back, I pray for 2 things. Wisdom and Courage. Wisdom to know where to to jump, and the Courage to do so. Wisdom to plan the path moving forward, and Courage to forge ahead. So be it leaping over the gap or falling into the abyss, be it tripping on the hurdle or clearing it, may these 2 things leave me with a life well spent.